Humor is my medicine

Tue, 28 Nov 2006 19:52:11 GMT

I have a new phone so.....if you want me to have your number IM me or leave a comment. Thanks. btw my number is the same.

Thu, 28 Sep 2006 04:27:00 GMT

I'm really angry. So be forewarned. I'm tired of Christians that act like they are better than anyone else. I'm tired of people acting like everything is cool. You know exactly who I am talking about. People that act like nothing is wrong in their life when deep inside they know they are living a lie.

I'm not perfect. So dont think I'm not pointing the finger at myself. I need to change as well.

I'm also tired of LBC being nothing more that match.com Sure we all laugh when people say Lancaster Bridal College, but in all seriousness, if you are in a relationship just to prove to everyone that you somehow have your life together, you are wrong. Maybe I'm wrong, maybe I'm not seeing things correctly. Maybe we should be at a Bible college to learn about God. I'm dead set on the fact that if we focused more on God then we wouldnt care about who we were dating this week. Its disgusting, plain and simple. How are we supposed to be different than this world if all we ever do is try to blend in.

Like I said maybe I have it all wrong. Maybe I should just shut up and let people make mistakes and find out for themselves. Maybe I should just let people live in their little LBC bubble.

I'm not attacking people that are trying to fall in love. Believe me I want it more than anyone. I'm just trying to understand how people can live day to day knowing they have left things unfinished. I'm no longer going to pretend everything is ok, I'm no longer going to act like past relationships went well just so people think I'm a cool person. I'm tired of being a surfacy Christian, I'm tired of letting people get to me.

I'm tired of living a lie.

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 17:06:50 GMT

head on over to my xanga and check out the latest entry. I tried to post the picture up here but it didnt work

http://www.xanga.com/Arawk

enjoy!

Sun, 16 Apr 2006 11:47:16 GMT

How deep the Father's love for us
How vast beyond all measure
That He should give His only Son
And make a wretch His treasure
How great the pain of searing loss
The Father turns His face away
As wounds which mar the Chosen One
Bring many sons to glory

Behold the man upon his cross
My sin upon His shoulders
Ashamed, I hear my mocking voice
Call out among the scoffers
It was my sin that held Him there
Until it was accomplished
His dying breath has brought me life
I know that it is finished

I will not boast in anything
No gifts, no power, no wisdom
But I will boast in Jesus Christ
His death and resurrection
Why should I gain from His reward
I cannot give an answer
But this I know with all my heart
His wounds have paid my ransom

Why should I gain from His reward
I cannot give an answer
But this I know with all my heart
His wounds have paid my ransom

Sun, 02 Apr 2006 20:29:18 GMT

Movie Survey, It's fun DO IT!

Type your cut contents here.
First Movie you saw in a theater : hmm not really sure, i can bet it was a disney movie tho

First Movie you didnt see the end of cause u were too buisy making out : The One

Did you ever try to rewacth a movie cause u were too buisy making out ? The One (it took like 5 tries at watching it lol)

Did you ever have to pause a movie cause you were laughing so hard ? no but ive had to rewind sometimes becuase of a missed joke.

Which scary movie creeped you out the most ? What Lies Beneath

Which scary movie made you laugh cause it was THAT lame ? From Hell

Favorite Stupid Funny Movie - Stealing Harvard

Favorite SNL Parody /Character Movie - anything with Adam Sandler or Will Ferrell

Favorite Movie to quote - Rounders

Favorite Teen Flick - 10 Things I Hate about You

Favorite Chic Flic - aren't they all the same anyway?

Favorite Action Movie - Equlibrium, Kill Bill 1, Princess Mononoke

Favorite Classic - Cool Hand Luke

Favorite New Classic - Ronin

Favorite SciFi other then Star Wars - hmm good question

Favorite Star Wars - Empire Strikes back

Favorite Drama - Boiler Room

Favorite Musical - music man

Movie you know every word to -Anchor Man

Disney Movie - Fox and the Hound ( i always cry)

Favorite Cartoon Movie [non disney] anything Gundam Wing (but its not cartoon its anime)

Stupid movie u liked as a Kid ... anything disney

Movie you'll wacth on TV even thought u own it - saving private ryan

Movie you cry at EVERY time - Fox and the Hound, Swingers (well just kill myself not cy)

Movie you most obsess over - Princess Mononoke, Metropolis

Cult Movies that u like - Pulp Fiction, Lock Stock and Two Smoking Barrells, Snatch

Movie Posters you have - The One, Iron Monkey, X-men 3!, Pokemon the First Movie (not hanging up)

Favorite Male Actor - John Cusak

Favorite Hottie Male Actor - Brad Pitt

Favorite Actress - Natile Portman

Favotire Hottie Actress - Natilie Portman , Angelina Jolie , Jennifer aniston, Rachael Leigh Cook, Katie Holms, Maura Tierney

Brad Pitt - yes

Angelina - Yes

Colin Ferrel - Yes

Tom Cruise - Yes

Kevin Cosner or Mel Gibson ? Mel

Bruce Willis or Steven Segal ? Bruce

how many movies do you own ? nearing 300

Last Movie you saw in the theater ? Red Eye

Who were you with ? Liz

Last Movie you Rented or borrowed - 40 Year Virgin

Last movie you wacthed with a friend - hmm dont remember sorry friends ha

Movie you would like to see / are looking forward to - MI3, Xmen 3, V for Vandetta,

Movie that's on Dvd now that you need to see !? History of Violence, Lord of War

Movies you need to own - Narnia, Wedding Crashers

Is there a movie you cant watch anymore cause you've seen it WAY too many times - none that i can think of

Is there a movie that ALWAYS seems to be on ? dont have cable so i couldnt tell you

Is there a movie you cant wacth because it reminds you of your X or they have ruined it for you ? Must Love Dogs (would like to own it but havent picked it up...)

Yes or No

Lord of the Rings .... YES

Star Wars ... YES

Rocky ... eh i can do with out

harry potter ... not so much, I would watch if it was on but I wouldnt pick it to watch

Xmen .. ... YES

Pirates of the C ... Yes

Jason X movies ... No

Terminator ... never seen any of them so yeah

Indiana Jones ... YES

Are you able to flip tv channels and see only a few seconds of a movie and be able to name it ? most of the time, unless its some crappy movie on upn

Is is possible that you've never actually seen the movie before but you know by the actors / tone or what's going on but u still know what movie it is ? yes

Is there a movie you'd like to suggest that everyone NEEDs to see if they havnt already ?
(Saved? seriously? i thought that movie was crap) Passion of the Christ

I think that's it ... add some more questions if u'd like ... but let me know if u enjoyed it or not ....

Ending of a Movie that made u question life itself and your egsistance ... swingers lol

Last Movie you Cried during in the theater ... people said i cried at walk to remember, sadly tho i dont remember it happening

Ever wanted to walk out of a theater during the movie ? nope

Ending of a movie that you didnt expect ? Saw 1 & Saw 2 HOLY CRAP!

Sat, 15 Oct 2005 00:06:59 GMT

i have 2 ticketes to this show one for me and one for............

Thousand Foot Krutch Concert Details:

Thousand Foot Krutch, w/ Hawk Nelson, Dizmas and Fourth Avenue Jones

October 16, 2005 @ 6:00pm

Eastern University • St. Davids, PA

call me!!

Wed, 17 Aug 2005 18:58:39 GMT

This is not a friends only post!!!!

You need to go to this link and sign the petition!

http://www.petitiononline.com/cdi2005/petition.html

Keep the columbia drive in alive!!!!

Longest Entry EVER!!!! almost as long as lauras haha (no spell check HA!)

Fri, 29 Jul 2005 00:37:55 GMT

ok so here's a story. the long version so if anyone missed anything now is your chance to get all you questions answered.

I start off with a question. Have you ever been around someone or with someone and thought, wow I could spend the rest of my life with this person? Dont answer to quickly because its not an easily answered question. Is there someone out there who is your perfect match? Did God create someone that is my match? I believe He did. I think that somewehere out there, there is a person for everyone. You just have to be in the right mind frame sometimes to acctually see that person. What is the right mind frame? Glad you asked. For me it was giving everything to God, trusting my future with Him. It sounds easier than it really is, and trust me it was the hardest thing to do. So after doing this i naturally thought it would be an instantanious thing. I would pray like 3 times tops and some girl would show up at my door. I wish that it would have been that easy but I know in the long run that I'm glad it wasn't. I prayed for years for this. To find someone that not only made me happy but honestly makes my soul happy. I had all but given up hope. I was starting to believe myself that maybe there wasnt a person out there for me. Maybe God wanted me to be single, and I was cool with that.

Then came december 04. A christmas concert at LBC. My sister works there and I was invited to go to the concert. Afterwards everyone came back to (now my apartment as well) my sister apartment. There I met some of my sisters friends, they either worked at LBC or went to school there. One person stuck out in my mind and, I didnt realize it at the time, but this would be the girl i fell head over heals for. The months pass and not much happens. I go through a time where i think I'm in love. And then find out that I'm wrong. Then i begin to convince myself I dont need love.

Then comes the youth group. I move to lancaster, work for a church and (now) run the youth group. I throw myself into everything I do. Filling my mind with the word of God, and basically giving everything to Him. Then someone returns. A person whom I had met only once. A person who has changed her major from music to youth min. and she wants to help out with my youth group. She shows up at a superbowl party, and i dont pay much attention to her. Not that I'm rude I just wast giving myself a chance to know her.

Then comes chicago. A missions trip that almost didnt happen. An event that changed my life forever. This girl decides to go as a chaperon. Fair enough we need a female on the trip, and i thought nothing more. As the week prgressed, i found myself opening up to her. Just talking to her, and really goofing off. Just having fun. And as the week ended I knew that are time together was growing ever shorter.

Then saturday came. The trip was over and I took her to the house she was staying. Even then I didnt know how my heart was going to change for her. The plans were made to go to a movie that night. The teens in the van all yelled and screamed "Go Go, you have to GO!" I almost didnt. But I did. I went to see "must love dogs" with this girl and her best friend. During parts of the movie we laughed and looked at each other when certain jokes were made on screen that reminded us of things that had happened during the week. Even then I didnt know what was happening.

Then came the look. After the movie we started talking about John Cusack. You see this girl hadnt seen High Fidelity before and it just so happened to be my favorite movie. So we headed back to my apartment. Where we soon found oursleves on the couch. And to my surprise sharing a pillow. Then during the movie i looked up. I saw this girl peering over the pillow, right into my eyes. The look that stole this boys heart. The look that has forever changed my life.

Then came the talking. We talked, and talked , and talked. For six hours. Saying things that I had never told anyone before. Reading poetry that only I have read. And feeling something that was much more than just temporary. A feeling that has changed me like nothing else before. (except God but i figured you got that already)

Then came the rules. You see this girl had been hurt before, but then again so had this boy. The rules of the relationship. Some might say they are crazy. Some might laugh and say good luck keeping those rules. But I hope that most will say wow this boy is dedicated. This is for real. What are the rules you ask. Well first off I would have to ask this girls parents if i could date her. (still havent met them yet!) Second she didnt want to kiss until she gets married. (long story beind this one) Third, the two wouldnt be able to date until they ahd know each other for a year, until then they would just befriends. (how far away is december) and forth I couldnt break her heart.

That leaves me with one thing to say. I'm willing to do anything to make this realtionship work. I will go to any lengths to make this girl happy, to be with her forever. I only have one rule though.

Dont break my heart.

Thu, 07 Jul 2005 07:46:34 GMT

From now on my screen name will be

LancYouthGuy

arawk is gone upwardsdownfall is gone :(

so if you want to im me use LancYouthGuy

email will still be the same

arawk@hotmail.com

and my journal and myspace will still be the same

peace

ps my* laptop is in the office!!!!! (i hope)

*my refers to the laptop the church is buying but i can use anytime but sunday morning, thus becoming my laptop.

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 02:40:50 GMT

p i n k m o c h i says 唯一の友人!!! (friends only)

Sat, 14 May 2005 04:33:55 GMT

i was talking to my friend i used to work with at target. and she told me that her dad had just died. i think it was last week. i never met him but i worked withe sherri for 3 years. she's like a sister to me. i only posted this so you could just say a prayer for her, and her family.

thanks

Fri, 01 Apr 2005 17:16:16 GMT

So there are rumors that Mitch didnt die. I'm not really to sure about that. His comedy isn't the type that he would fake his death as a joke. Here is a like with one of my favorite jokes. It's at the improv from like 2003. Enjoy

Mitch live

ps I'm going home today. the cell is one. Happy Birthday dad!

Fri, 01 Apr 2005 00:21:48 GMT

Comedian Mitch Hedberg dead at 37

BY MATT PEIKEN

Pioneer Press

Even family and close friends had a hard time understanding Mitch Hedberg, a St. Paul native who ran away from home and, despite living a scattershot life, became a runaway success as a standup comic.

Hedberg, whose space-case persona was as much part of his soul as it was his act, died early Wednesday morning in a New Jersey hotel room. He was 37. A medical examiner hasn't issued findings, but Hedberg's family was told he suffered a heart attack. His wife was with him.

After graduating St. Paul's Harding High School, Hedberg rose through the ranks at Minneapolis' Acme Comedy Co., and caught his big break through a Comedy Central special. He made several appearances on David Letterman's and Conan O'Brien's shows, made more Comedy Central appearances and produced two comedy CDs. His big dream, to have an HBO comedy special, was in the works.

Hedberg's one-liners, dished off in a spacy staccato, were based on absurdist, random observations. His long, dirty blond hair harkened to the image of a 1970s stoner, and his success occurred in light of, in spite of and even because of his quarter-century affair with drugs and alcohol.

"I'd probably be living in Costa Rica, eating oranges on the beach, if I wasn't doing comedy," he told the Pioneer Press last September.

"There's no two ways about — having a son in entertainment industry is challenging," his mother, Mary Hedberg, said Thursday.

She recalls being at work when her oldest daughter called in a panic to tell her Mitch had packed some brown paper bags and left home. Mary Hedberg couldn't get home in time to either see him off or talk him out of it.

"That was heartbreaking for us, but he kept in contact with us. He called as soon as the car broke down," she said. "You know, it was like putting him through college, even though he wasn't at college. But when he got his first break, we were just so thrilled for him, because we wanted him to know he was O.K., and to have that self-confidence that he could do what he wanted to do."

Louis Lee, owner of the Acme, said Hedberg not only became the Twin Cities' first breakout comedian of the 1990s but, along with Lewis Black, helped shape a national resurgence in standup comedy.

"It's very difficult for one-liner comedians to get an audience going, but when Mitch worked here, you could see the kids call out the punchline," Lee said. "Mitch made the whole comedy community realize how important good writing is. It's a huge loss."

Unlike many comics, Hedberg was demonstrably thankful to his fans. Not long ago, a group of college students in Florida, speaking with Hedberg backstage after a show, mentioned how hot their dorm room was. Hedberg surprised them the next morning by showing up to their dorm with a new air conditioner.

"Mitch presented a lot of challenges, but a lot of opportunities for traveling that we wouldn't have otherwise had, and he had a heart of gold," his mother said. "He was a brilliant comic and a wonderful person."

Dates haven't been set, but eventual visitation and services will be at Wulff Family Services, Woodlane Mortuary, in Woodbury.

Matt Peiken can be reached at 651-228-5440 or mpeiken@pioneerpress.com.

Tue, 08 Feb 2005 19:58:00 GMT

Napoleon Dynamite i laughed

Tue, 18 Jan 2005 21:05:42 GMT

I know all of you have been waiting by your LJ just to hear my "BIB BIG News" so, I figured I'd let all of you (those who don't already know)in.

As of Monday night I am officially one of 3 of the youth pastors at 1st Baptist Church of Lancaster. From what I hear it was a unanimous vote. I'm going to be the events coordinator as well as everything else they need me to be. It's a job that I wasn't sure I wanted until I really prayed about it. I need a job and thou it only pays in rent,electric,heat,water,Internet,and soon digital cable/. It's still pays rent, electric..... you get the point.

So now I'm at the task of emptying my room. Things are going and boxes and things that should have been thrown away days/weeks/months/years ago are doing such.

And thus ends my big news. Sorry if any of you thought I was going to run for president or something. (that announcement will come later) As for when I'm gong to move is another question. My dad has a meeting in philly on Thursday and is (depending on weather) going to be leaving for Florida on Sunday for "work" I say it like that because its 13 degrees here and I know it has to be warmer than that in Florida so work can't seem that bad. But I would like to get some stuff over there this week because Saturday the youth group is going to a Hershey bears game, and I might stay this weekend as long as I can get some stuff over there tm or friday.

Well I've said enough. I would like everyone to comment about things they will miss about my room. And ladies feel free to comment about all the good times*I'm not sure how much longer I will have AOL. So the screen name will be the same and email as well. I have a hotmail account but I wont use it till I move.

Peace

*there were no "ladies" or "good times"

Thu, 30 Dec 2004 08:10:16 GMT

Jerry Orbach 1935-2004

Fri, 03 Dec 2004 10:18:44 GMT

Royals game tonight 7pm. I have 2 tickets. I'm going so that means I will have one extra. Any takers?

Mon, 08 Nov 2004 20:58:28 GMT

Let me guess, you picked out yet another colorful box with a crank that I'm expected to turn and turn until OOP! big shock, a jack pops out and you laugh and the kids laugh and the dog laughs and I die a little inside.

Tue, 02 Nov 2004 02:32:51 GMT

Vote tomorrow! Vote for life! Vote for Bush!

need i say more?

Fri, 08 Oct 2004 06:56:13 GMT

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done.

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, Light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
It makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbyes
I nearly do.

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower, slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess.

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear.

I don't know I was listening to this song on the way home tonight and it just kinda hit me. Laura's new guy friend is going to freakin kosovo. And he's just starting this new relationship and he's going to be gone for 18 months. With nothing more of maybe a picture and a few letters down the road. Not to mention the fact of daily fears because of being over there. It's really sad. You don't fully comprehend this until you know someone in the war or love someone far away. My friend is in Afghanistan for 2 years. And if I could I would be over there as well. So read the lyrics get the song from snow patrol and think about things. About all the people across the sea right now fighting for your freedom.

this is the end......... my only friend the end.....................

Tue, 24 Aug 2004 08:39:05 GMT

I'm done with live journal. For how long I dont know. I doubt I will even read them anymore. it's just such a pain in the ass truthfully. What the heck do I care if people read my journal. I'm sure no ones life will end if they dont read another depressing entry about my life. and I'm sure my life wont end if I don't read another entry from ******** ha! Try to guess who the stars are have fun.

peace?

Mon, 16 Aug 2004 17:40:11 GMT

I think badp will agree with me on this.(or at least I hope lol) I'm so tired of reading peoples live journals, the entries where they ask other people advice. Ya know the ones "should I do this, or do you think I should go here, or should I trust?" And then you responses like "Do what feels right" "You should trust so and so because you are friends" or the ever popular "friends don't judge." It sickens me, people with their world views, people just doing "whatever feels right" or thinking that one friend looking out for another is consided judging, how a simple religious view is considered looking down your nose or pious. My belief is in God the one true God, not some good feeling that i can just sit back and "enjoy the ride." And the fact that I can make one suggestion one comment about how I believe and I'm told that I'm so how not letting someone live their life. People that dont even know me except for the occasional read through on LJ.

If this sounds confusing to you then let me explain. I try to like everyone. It's not in my nature to hate or even fight. But some things piss me off. And somethings make me question why people do things. Does that mean i write them off as friends or excommunicate them, not at all. I have friends who do stupid things for stupid reasons, but they are still my friends. We all do stupid stuff and thats what makes us human. But one thing we need to realize and ask our selves the question "what does all this mean?" Is this life filled with nothing more than "good feelings" ? Do we live for nothing more than feelings and drifting through life making choices and not thinking about the concecences? Or is there something more to life than just peace, love and happiness.

So take this entry not as some religious "point my finger in you face you dirty sinner you're going to hell" take it as an opportunity to ask yourself what is my purpose? Is it to just drift through life on good feelings, doing whatever feels right. Or is it to make wrong choices now and then, learn from them, try hard live life the way God wants not the way you want, and to relize life isnt perfect but it doesnt matter because this life isnt all you have.

So thats my speech. Something I just needed to say, something that needed to be said. it probably could have been said better, but I dont want to piss off to many of my friends. ha!

Mon, 09 Aug 2004 04:44:15 GMT

Rick James
February 1, 1948 - August 6, 2004

Thu, 05 Aug 2004 03:21:09 GMT

I wanna go see a movie tm I have the day off. Someone call me and lets do this.

Thu, 05 Aug 2004 00:26:39 GMT

My cell number is 484-429-3507 it was going to be to much trouble to change it back to my old one. Make a note of it. And call me!

"And when it's all over just leave me to my own device
I should have known when to stop listening to your bad advice
They said it was a big disaster
I heard it on the telephone
You called me the morning after
to tell me where our plan went wrong"

Mind over matter